January 2010
28 posts
“To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is...”
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wow, what a day!
i was left in charge at the salon today bc my boss was out of town. it was just me & our 14 year old assistant working. during the middle of the day this creepy man came in & asked for a tour of the back of the salon. he was clearly up to no good. i ended up having to call the cops & have them patrol the area & they came & took a suspicious persons report...
my head hurts from thinking so hard. i think my body keeps having mini anxiety attacks. what is up with me lately? i dont know where my head is. all the time i have that feeling where you feel like youre just watching yourself & youre not really there.
& now i hate myself for complaining about feeling crazy when the world is falling apart. people are lost & homeless & starving.
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i dont know if tonight was a big mistake or a step forward.
I’m getting to where I feel like I’m gunna disappear for a little while, have some time where I don’t really hang out with anyone. Weird things have been happening lately & I guess I just need some time for myself to put them together in my brain. I do this every few months. I don’t know why, & it always kind of takes a toll on my friendships.
Im moving out in 2...
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I don’t know what I’m doing.
But I’m happy.
& it’s a different happy.
I’ve GOOOOT to find some way to make lots of money in 2 weeks.
I’ve been so selfish lately. I hate when I get in that frame of mind. There’s so much stuff going on in other peoples lives that so much bigger than me or what I think is “tough” for me. All I should be worried about is showing Jesus to those people.
Church was so good tonight. I love the book of Joshua.
Krissy & Adam are staying the night tonight. We’ve some...
I’ve been praying for joy.
I’ve been praying for God to take this negative nagging spirit & for His joy to fill me up.
You should pray for that too.
I need this season of my life to pass & a change to happen. I’m thinking me, just anticipating the changes that are coming is making me impatient so it’s putting me in a weird place mentally. God is good. His yoke is...
It’s starting to set in how lonely I actually am & I really don’t like it. Its annoying. I’m not one of those people who has to have affection or attention to feel good about myself by any means. I don’t know, maybe I think somehow if I just write this out the feeling will go away or something.
I’ve been praying for my future a lot, praying that the choices I...
I think being stuck in my house for the past 2 days is messing with me. There’s been way too much time for me to just sit around & think. It has been nice to just do nothing for a change though. I stayed in bed almost the whole day today & just watched movies. I can’t remember the last time I did that.
I tried to go to lauras tonight but bad stuff kept happening on my way out...
There’s so many things I want say but there’s no reason for me to say them.
The child is an acrobat
And he walks upon the...
i sat down & read the book of Ruth tonight.
i think shes one of my favorite people in the bible. i can relate to her a lot. she just goes where shes needed & she has a servant’s heart. the only thing she does have that i feel like i dont is courage. i feel like im not brave enough in my faith. i want to be better at going where the Lord has me go, no matter if its africa or...
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last night wasn’t exactly how i pictured it. i had a pretty crumby new years eve. i talked to craig about it & hes probably right, i went into the night with pretty high expectations since 2009 was such a horrible year & since my last new years eve was so bad.
i need something good. i need something new. ive got this overwhelming feeling of negative all the time now. i thought i...
